How do we actively trust in God's perfect will, and press with every ounce of strength we have against the door that appears to be closing?
It's too soon. Mamas shouldn't say goodbye to their babies.
Instead, we have a year of beautiful pictures.
And we have hope that God does indeed make everything beautiful in it's time. Ava is truly beautiful.
A few nights ago I read aloud to Ava from the bible. I read from Mark 5, about a synagog official named Jairus who seeks out Jesus to come heal his dying daughter. Jesus agrees to go home with him. When another official comes to report that Jairus' daughter has died, and he shouldn't trouble Jesus any longer, Jesus, hearing this, says:
"Do not be afraid any longer. Only believe."
We've been asking God this week to show us how to believe.
That Jesus is our hope and the One who can make Ava well...
That Jesus is coming with us where we are going...
That we do not need to fear...
In the middle of our preoccupation with Ava, Elizabeth has been struggling with a virus and is enduring her sixth day of fevers. Now Hannah Mae has come down with it and both of them are pretty miserable. We need an extra measure of grace. Today two friends helped change bedding, clean floors and hold Ava. Tomorrow two more will come to help.
Thank you Lord for your daily bread.